Human are cowards in the face of happiness.

Roller Coaster Ride.

2012-01-16T05:01:00.000-08:00

What'd gotten into me lately? I've not been myself. I can't help but to feel controlled by my emotions. I cry, I smile, I laugh, I go crazy, I change in an blink of an eye. I don't even know what's wrong with me anymore. I feel so moody out of the blue, and then I can be very happy the next very moment. What's wrong?

Here we go again.

2012-01-05T07:01:00.000-08:00

If this don't break us, nothing will.

Boy,

The world would mean nth without you by my side. I promise to love you with all of my heart. I just want you to know, you mean the world to me. You gave me hope when I was down, you held onto me when I was about to fall, you're that pillar I've been looking for.

For that, I thank god for allowing us to meet.

You don't have to know how much you mean to me, it can't be explained but can be only felt with.

Love you.

XOXO.

Too big a dream breaks you.

2012-01-04T04:36:00.000-08:00

It was easier back then..

Through it all, I still wish to be yours.

But.. the reaction I receive, was shocking and unacceptable, for me at least.

For once, I would say I would regret.

2012

2011-12-29T06:14:00.001-08:00

A new year is coming, but I feel no excitement for it. Perhaps it's just gonna be another year full of whining and laughing.

One thing for sure that's gonna be different for the upcoming year is that..

I'm gonna be a so much better person that this year. this I promise.

Even before the new year emerges in, I've come up with some new year resolutions for myself.

And they shld all be secret.

Shhhh..

You see me even when I'm transparent.

2011-12-04T06:25:00.000-08:00

Sometimes it is not the smile that keeps you gng, it's the positive mindset that stops you from giving up.

Every post I typed, I'll start with HI, Been so long!, and this is so bored :( Yet, I can't think of any thing to start up with already because the period of the current post and the next post is always so so so so so long! I also wanna blog frequently one lorrrrrrrrrrr.

So, Life's good. Found some good friend in poly, finally! Still, I'm so not looking forward to schl because I've got to wake up so early :( Seriously, how did i made it to schl when I was in secondary and primary schl? Nevertheless, I'm still gonna try and make it thru this 3 years in poly, just wanna get done and over with studies. Can't wait for all this shit to end. Okay, maybe they aren't shit, the worse are still on the way.

CT IS COMING:( Just 6 more days before my first paper starts... that explains my photo below ^^

I AM DAMN SAD :( Bby had off for 1 week and he got to accompany me to study for the upcoming CT. I won't let anyone down so I shall strife for all A's. HAHAHA, It is better to set your targets high and then just fall below slightly then to set it low and then couldn't even pass right? ALRIGHT LETS GO HPL.

Key.

2011-11-15T05:46:00.000-08:00

That smile of yours is what pushes me on.

Oh well, HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY TO MY BBY (L). I'm late 2 days because had been busy with schl and Eliza's birthday! So overall, on 5th November, we headed to Hard Rock Hotel @ Sentosa for a mini celebration of my boy's big day! Yes I know, it's like 10 days before his birthday. Advanced celebration because 1, His birthday is on weekday. 2, he will be in the jungle :\, 3, most of his brothers enlisting on 8 November. Hence, we planned his birthday celebration by 10 days earlier!

Shouldn't say that the celebration was very successful, but I hope the boy enjoyed himself! :D Didn't do much deco as it was pretty rushed and Idk what to decorate alrdy :\ So only some mini decorations, ordered pizza + kfc. Had so many leftovers! :( So boy and me ate them the next morning HAHAHA. No worries man, no stomach pain. WE STRONG :D

Bought this couple tee to wear on that day itself ^^ Hehe. So kewt right ohmygawd.
inside the lift with this diamonds/crystals/deco, so... high class~
I've no idea why justin bieber is consider a rock star? (that is if you notice justin bieber inside the photo)

I'm the type of girl who is quite scared of balloon but I did for my bby! Blew the balloon and I tied my very first balloon there ^^ So accomplished HEHE.

And then his brothers & poly mates arrived....

It is time to sing the happy birthday song to this cheeky boy ^^

Took quite a lot of polaroid since I want him to always rmb this big day of his. With me by his side of cos HAHAHA.

only bought this for his birthday :( Cash tight and what he wants is really out of my pocket can hold :\ Hope he will still love me HAHAHA.

Till then readers.

With Love.

Hand in Hand.

2011-10-21T04:02:00.000-07:00

That smile of yours is something I'll do anything to have it.

Since I do not have the Bintan's trip photos yet, I shall update on Jet&Sally's wedding first ;)

Everytime I attend a wedding, I'll always wonder when will it be my turn. I'll feel damn excited for the bride and groom, I'll have a feeling of overwhelming happiness for the couple. Hence, without fail, that's how I feel during Jet&Sally's wedding.

I'm not that close with them, and I was pretty shocked and happy when I was being asked to be the sister. (Btw, that's my 2nd time being sister and I'm still wondering if I'll become nun if I be sister for the third time sigh) Everything went pretty smoothly and video of us 'punishing' the brothers and groom was pretty fun too! have a fun time seeing my dear boy wearing disposable panties, with lipstick on dancing nobody! Though he didn't do much and urm, hide behind his friend ALOT.

Was extremely tired as I recalled, I've no idea why also. Headed for mahjong session before gng down for dinner in the evening. Helped to do receptionist and was a pretty cool experience ;) Had champagne and after that, I feel damn sick :( Luckily boyf helps me massage my back and head to make my headache go away! Hehe. Luv that boy!

Well, I'm too lazy to elaborate but yeah, photos shall do the talking!

Overall, it went smoothly and yes, we have a new wed couple among us again! :D

*Photos aren't in correct order!

They got the flower that were threw by the bride! :D

Everyone always say that a lady would always be the most beautiful woman on earth on their weddng. How true! :D

Brave those tough times through.

2011-10-17T06:41:00.000-07:00

Smallest thing from you can allow me to walk a long way.

I'VE SO MANY THINGS TO UPDATE ON MY DEAD BLOGGGGGG.

I know none are reading my dead blog anymore.. still I wanna update it! Because.... I wanna read thru all the past posts and know what have I been doing in my life. I dont want to miss any part in my life, even those suckiest moment in my life ^^

Headed to Bintan on last wed(12 Oct), came back on fri(14 Oct), and attended Jet&Sally's big day on sat(15 Oct). Last week was packed with so many activities and this week.. packed with waiting.

Bby just headed to his new chapter of his life, and I really hope everything goes smoothly for him. Of cos, for me as well.

Shall update on Bintan Trip & the wedding real soon. By this week when the photo's are up I guess ;)

'In my darkest moment, all I've got to do is think of you, imagine you being there and it is enough'

2011-09-28T07:28:00.000-07:00

The truth is, pain makes people change.

Distance are nothing, when our hearts beat as one.

2011-09-19T06:31:00.000-07:00

"I love you, hold on to that" - Vampire Diaries.

LIFE SUCKS.

K, two words sum them all up. But then again, I should say I'm pretty much enjoying life right now. I've workload to keep me occupy during weekdays, and bby would be by my side(mostly) during weekends. They say you can't have the best from both sides of the world, true. When I was single, I see my friend as priority. Now I'm attached, it is not that I no longer view the importance of a friendship, it is just that, they had failed me so many times. So many times, that make me don't feel like bothering them anymore.

For example, previous week had been a tough one. Two friendships went down the drain, I won't say it had nothing to do with me. For it has. I admit, I was childish, reckless, egoistic. I wanted my face, I wanted to save myself from guilt and I put myself to face the cruel and harsh reality, dragging everyone else involved down. I was selfish. And to be honest, I can't stop blaming myself for that.

I don't fall in front of people, I don't tear in front of people. If I did, it is either the pain was too much, or you're someone I trust and love so dearly. Normally, when I cry, it happens to be both. Which means, you're someone that I trust and love so much that incurred the pain onto me.

No, I'm not looking back for I came across this meaningful quotes "Don't ever look back. If Cinderella had looked back to find her shoe, she wouldn't be a princess" Pretty true. So move on. I always believe that if I lost you my friend, you'd nvr been mine. Yes, one of us have to talk to one another, but.. come'on, who would?

Let the water flow, let the god decides. I nvr close my door towards any friend, or ex friend, or whatever. Because I believe that when someone comes to me for help, it must have taken them so much so much courage. And I wouldn't bear to turn them down. Even a stranger, I wouldn't. If I can help, I will.

These are the lovely ladies that I've catch up with them some time back. Though there's more girls that I've met during this few weeks. Just some I took some photos with :) Some I've known for years, others for months. No matter when I know them, how i got to know them, I'm glad for them. For the future is unknown, I won't speak much. Love you girls for all the happy moments we shared and all the times we laughed and all the truth we spoke.

Babyboy, the one that always lift up my spirit when I'm down. Life is hard on us right now, but I don't mind. Because I rather 先苦后甜. So long as I've got you by my side, I'm happy alrdy. I dk what did I do, to deserve such an awesome boy in my life, such a perfect one. I always tell myself that quarrels is inevitable and so long as we are tgt, everything is worth it. Even the pain, would be worth it.

I've so many things I wanna do with you my boy, you'll nvr know how much you stand in my heart and how much do you mean to me. Words are nothing but letters, this are all not enough to express gratitude i've towards god for giving me, you. This are all not enough to express my love for you. Whenever I look into your eyes, I know, nowhere in the whole world would I rather be. I just want to stay here, with you. With you, nothing else matters. You're all that I need, I want and all that I love.

Now y'know why I say life sucks, and not I hate life? Because my dear boy make it rock somehow :D

Rolling in the deep.

2011-09-07T01:09:00.000-07:00

Thank you for teaching me how to love.

Quite some time since I blog! Holidays is here, which means I've much more time for bby and for work, not forgetting friends that I've been wanting to catch up with! I'm not too sure if I'm loving my life right now, but I know with bby, everything seems to be on the right track and things would eventually get better. I should be glad alrdy right?

This holidays really let me realised that, some friends you may seem to be close with would turned out to be those that gives you a stab from behind, or they would be the one that makes you fall, terribly. On the other hand, friends that you may seem to not be contacting are those that would be there for you, whenever you need them. Weird har? But it is the fact.

Lazy to elaborate about my life, just got to say that love life is awesome. Because I've bby with me:)

Friends... i know no one would be there as and when I need them. It is better to be strong than to depend on them.

Ciaos.

For all those times..

2011-08-25T19:47:00.000-07:00

Some people care too much, i think it is called love.

Exams is coming to an end in abt... 6hrs time? Or lesser. I can't fucking wait. I know this sem I'm so not gng to do good, but at least give me a gpa above 3 please? :< I promise I'll work harder next sem. Sigh..

Still, I don't let studies drag me down! I'm still gng to go so high!! Freedom ;) I smell you! Hehe. Thou bby's gonna be inside camp, I'm gng to work! Earn lots of money, go overseas with him after his POP^^

So, he booked out last week and we stick tgt like superglue like that. Wherever he go, i'll be there! Went siamdiu (always make me hungry only there), went to eat chomp chomp and mainly, we just enjoyed each other's companion! Hehe.

This week passes real fast! I guess it is because I've been studying studying and studying! Bby will be booking out in 24hrs time ;) He had become so skinny and tan manz. Couldn't recognise him when I went to fetch him last week! Anw, some photos of the botaks! Brian & Fatterick went to cut their hair on urm.. sunday as they will be recruits on monday! (which had alrdy past)

After cutting botaks and eating, went to Northpoint! Bby bought shihlin chicken and we took bus home! He was preparing and I was putting the board up in his room ;)

& Then, we headed out at abt 5plus as he needs to reach pasir ris @ 7! Cabbed there(what's new).

this boy likea man only ah~ Hahaha.

& see how sad is he to book in :<

Alrightttttttttt, shall get back to studying of my INFA. Sian. Really no mood study. Just want to get it over and done with.. ASAP! It's time to rock da world ;)

Never ever regret anything you've done, because at some point of time, it is what you really wanted.

I'll nvr regret you, you will be someone I've wanted and always will be wanting.

CXH.

Hard work pays off.

2011-08-17T07:42:00.000-07:00

I would give the world to you.

17th Aug,

Know what? Less than 24hrs later, I'll be seeing my favourite all time boy. & I seriously can't fucking wait! I want to see how skinny, how tan had my boy become. I'm so gonna laugh at him, but rest assured, I'll still love with wholeheartedly ;)

Woke up today, headed to school for consultation. I'm not too sure if I benefited, but at least I feel satisfied that I went. I won't feel disappointed with myself HAHAHA. Had lunch, benjamin was at clementi buying koi, so he asked me if I wanted one. So long nvr drink koi alrdy, of cos ask him help me buy ^^ Then headed to INFA consultation. After that, went to library to self study. Studied a lil only.. nothing much. Came home, feeling so restless. Don' feel like studying alrdy.... K maybe I should get some sleep right! Then tmr wake up study again!

Saw the pictures? I did the board for bby. Gonna bring to pasir ris & surprised him tmr. Hehe. Hope he will be touched. I know it is ugly, but I am so not an art student can :< Gonna pin it up at his bedroom so whenever he book out, he can see our photos when he reaches home HAHA. of cos, I printed some photos for him too, so he can bring to bunk & paste them on his 衣橱. Such a thoughtful girlfriend right? I know I know:):):)

Alright, I shall get to bed now! Sleep early, tmr wake up early. Study for few hrs and then I'm off to meet my dearest boy. Seriously, can time just stop when friday comes? So my bby and I would have alot of time tgt. I so fucking miss him.. Luv.

Way back into love.

2011-08-16T07:41:00.000-07:00

Innocent, naive, simple-thinking, problem-less, wonderful.

16th Aug,

So... was supposed to work @ 9am. Woke up @ that timing instead FML. So prepared and out I go. Reached work @ abt 1030. Work work work till 9+pm before headed home. In between I'd abt 2breaks to have my lunch & Dinner. Dinner with boss and her daughter, fucking awkward can. Awkward MAX. Heng it passed real fasttttttttt.

Rushed home because I wanted to be able to talk to bby on the phone for longggggg. He is sick in camp :< Vomited.. how can I not be worried of him!! Sigh. This weak boy of mine need a strong girl = me. :):):) Hope he can sleep soundly now, and tmr he will be all alright once again! Or maybe, he can be sick and can book out earlier >:) I know I'm evil ^^

Anywayyyyyyy, bby called me @ 930, talked to him for... 10mins? Before my phone auto shutdown -.- FML. When I reached home, bby was alrdy gna turn in :< Sigh. Mum cooked meehunkuey for me, so I'd 3 proper meals today LOL. Fatfatfat. Maybe when bby book out, i'll be fatter than him alrdy HAHAHAHA k I'm keeeeeding! Now I'm wondering if I should do a INFA paper before heading to bed... or not. K i should do. So, I'm gna do it & go to bed! Waking at abt 8+ tmr to head to school! And tmr better pass quickly so thurs can fly here ;) Oh my fuck, 16days nvr see bby alrdy! Yes, we're reaching the end point of 18days SIBEI HAPPPPY AH.

Bby, I'm really so worried abt you. Worst part is, I can't do anything abt it. For this 16days, I've been trying to make myself busy so I would not be daydreaming and thinking abt how much you're suffering inside. They bring tears to my eyes. Bby, from this 16days, I really hope you've seen how much I'm in love with you. For you, I'm willing to wait. For you, I'm willing to do almost everything. You're the reason I'm hanging on, always the reason. I love you cxh!

Run away with you.

2011-08-15T09:14:00.000-07:00

Wherever you go, I'll be there.

15th Aug,

Headed to work in the morning! Thought I would be late, end up I am the earliest. wtsssss. Headed to tutoring after work, it was urm, awkward? I didn't have any experience and my mind is like shutting down. Luckily I manage to put on a brave front, like as if ya right i know how to do and i'm supposed to guide you. LOL. I feel like laughing to myself meanwhile. Anw, there's a xiao long mao in the place where I tutor. A house. One to one tutoring. Luckily it is quite cute cos it is in whiteeeeeee, and it is not naughty. If not I think I can just bid goodbye to the tutoring. LOL.

So... 2/3 more days & bby will be booking out!!! ^^ Damn excited cannnnnn. But he would be like... booking out at abt night time. Sibei sian. So unfairrrrr. Don't like :< Life had been pretty boring, had been working and studying. Sigh. I seriously think I'll fail myself in the upcoming exams. No matter how much I tried to study, nothing really went in. Honestly, I don't lie. If I mug hard enough, I would blog abt mugging so much and so happy. I don't like people who mug, claimed they don't, results out they score damn fucking well. Despise those people seriously. I mean.. just fucking admit it la?! I'm not pinpointing at anyone, just feel like saying this out. Other than can't wait for bby's book out, I can't fucking wait for payday. I'm broke like fuck. Why cannot take pay every 2 weeks harrrrr?! :<

We've come so far, so we would just continue gng on from here.

Don't give up, never give up, because I won't.

Luv you bby.

Be yourself.

2011-08-14T07:47:00.000-07:00

We spend too much time wondering why we're not good enough.

14th Aug,

So I'm back after a half day outing with the girls. Woke up @ 12pm, which was like 2 hrs after my alarm. Fml. Was supposed to wake up @ 10 to study for my Business Law. I failed myself, totally. Damn disappointed.. so studied till abt 3.30. Went to bathe, make up, prepare myself & out I go to meet Elaine & Lynn @ pioneer mrtttttt. Initial plan was to head to tiong bahru for steamboat then town, but since Jiani had tuition till 5.30, we went down to town to meet Joycelyn & Adeline first.

Met them at Ion as Elaine wanted to go burberry to buy a shirt for her husband! How sweet right this girl. Hahaha. Always so caring for her boyboy. Then we cabbed down to tiongbahru for the mini steamboat. It is call "the rajar inn". Similar to marina square hot pot culture. Otw to tiong, Adeline passed me my present.

Went to meet Jiani @ Mos Burger before heading up to the rajar inn. Then, Joycelyn, Lynn & Elaine surprise me with a small cake. Hahaha. Although my birthday is like, ten days ago, I really appreciate the effort they put in to make sure I still have cake. They handed my present to me as well! They put in effort to make sure I still remember my birthday is impt, making me believing in friendship all over again. Im glad, for having them. Really. Maybe one person's fault shouldn't be making the whole clique responsible for it, because there's still people who truly cares, who truly take the initiative to make things up for me. Thankyou girls. I love y'all.

So we ate, ordered too much hehe. Couldn't finish and then we headed home soon after that. As today is quite a fierce day for 7th Month and with baby inside elaine's stomach, it is better to be safe than sorry. That explains why I'm here at this timing! Furthermore, I need to get ready for my first tutoring lesson tmr. Omg I'm so scared.... and I need to study for Business Law. I need an A. A fucking A. Bo pi bo pi guan yin ma!!!!!!

I'm a happy girl ^^

As each day passes, 18th is coming closer. No matter what my dearest boy, I'll be loving you ok. Stop worrying abt your looks. I love you because of you. Because of your love to me. Because you love me, wholeheartedly. Because you love me. Because you brought light to my life when my world is dark. Thankyou boy for your love. 4 more days and soon, we can be with one another as well. If I can't even get through this with you, I'm not worth it. And I know, I'm worth it because I love you. Truly. Madly. Deeply.

Love you like a love song.

2011-08-13T06:32:00.000-07:00

Love is deaf. You can't say how much you love someone, you have to show it.

13th Aug,

Just 5 fucking more days and I'm gna MIA because I'll be like being surrounded by bby's hugsssss ;) Can't wait! Today had been working working and working. I seriously feel, feel that I need to start mugging. It is like when I open my books, I feel oh, i know this i know that. But when I actually start doing a paper, I can't rmb a single shit. FML.

Worked from 9-12+. Suddenly boss's daughter suggested calling Sharon & me cab down to geylang(their the other outlet) to do some filing kind of thingy. After some thinking, we decides to go ahead with it. Yup. So we went, cab there. Ate and we were left there, just the two of us to do the job. Pretty slacking, but still we were trying to be productive. Headed home at abt 6.15 and reached home at abt 7+. Started with one of the paper of MIEC, that's all I did. I count the questions I did, if all the questions I did correctly, I would still fail the paper. Wtf right. Sigh. This means I Need to like... buck up. Really buck up.

So I tried to do 2 more paper but obviously I failed. K, at least I realise the past years paper are pretty similar. Like maths, need practice. Yup, that's all! And I'm gng to practice, tmr I think :\ I camped infront of my tv @ 8.57, wanting to catch the 9pm show. In the end, fml, today is sat! I totally forgot abt it. Wts right! Idiot only. and then my dinner is back. Yes I had my dinner like urm half an hour ago (time check: 10pm). I'm so freaking full now and I think sleeping now would be like so awesome! Hope when bby book out he won't mind me becoming fatter hehe.

Now i'm waiting for bby's call. So late liaoz :< He is keeping his rifle now alrdy. Bo pi bo pi his rifle won't kenna confiscate or whatever shit, mustn't kenna confinement if not I cry a river now I tell you! Please ah~

Friendships have been causing so much problem. I feel like confronting you, but knowing your character you would just shake me off. It is pretty irritating but since you feel you've done nothing wrong, so be it. Wait till you get your karma.

Aiya out of 3 friendships, 2 friendship have problem fml bo?

Now, the only person I rely on is my boyfriend.

Because he'd been there for me, no matter when.

Words might just be words, but I believe to believe in him.

Someday if he decides to walk away, I promise I won't hate or blame.

I choose this road, and am walking down this road.

Luv you boy. Luv you so much.

the smell of you.

2011-08-12T07:23:00.000-07:00

"The best feeling in this world is knowing that you actually mean something to someone"

12th August,

Gave work a miss as I woke up, having cramps. It suck totally. And it is like.. extremely painful! Been so long since I felt such a pain in my tummy. Messaged boss and slept back.

Woke up at abt noon, decides to start studying since I did not study for 2days alrdy! But then.. Daphne told me Elaine was at JP. So decides to head over, find her for a lil chit chat ;) In the end, saw Eugene, Jessie and even Huier at JP. How coincident. Hahaha. Headed home at abt 4.30, and really starts studying at 5!!

I dk why, but no matter how much I study, I feel like I've not study enough. It is like, I feel I'll nvr be able to study enough to go to exam room, full of confident. Nvr would I be able to do that. and it suck! So studied till 9, then went to watch Channel 8 the 9pm show. Getting more and more interesting har. Hahaha! Bby called at abt 945, chatted with him for abt half an hr ;) Sibei 开心. Everyday looking forward to the night and also to the 18th Aug only. Bby keep complaining abt how dark he had become and he says he wanna bring me go ROM ^^ i know it is just words, but i 爽 can alrdy! HAHA.

Alright, guess I'm gng to finish up the last part of market structure, tmr attempt 3 papers and also have to start with Blaw. Hopefully.. just hopefully I would be able to catch up with my study. Hopefully next wed consultation would be like.. fruitful. Hopefully. Alright, time to go off.

Just 6 more days and in 2 hrs it would be 5 more days! Had been tough on us for the past twelve to thirteen days but we hanged in there, so should we for the next 5/6 more days. Bby, I love you. You make me fall in love like nvr before. You make me feel like, I'm alive for a reason. And that's not an easy task. Luv chiu, cxh (LUV)

For once, I believe.

2011-08-11T09:11:00.000-07:00

You don't have to be awesome, just have to be mine.

11th Aug,

Slept earlier previous nights as I was worn out. And really, just need to sleep. Just want to sleep. Sleep away the days, sleep away the time. So 18th Aug would fly here, come to mama. HEHE. Headed to work in the morning, left home late but was the first to arrive at the office. Unbelievable right! I know I know. Went down to buy food after the others reached and I put my stuff in the office. Had another break at 1plus then went off from work at abt 6.15.

Headed to Clementi Mall to meet the girls - Chermaine, Souyan & Rica. Half a year not meeting them alrdy!! Last met was like.. bkk?!?! Still, we manage to spend quality time with one another in this abt.. 6 hours of meet up!! Had Fish & Co., was my first time eating it! I'm not a lover for fried fish, so I should say okay okay lor.. I prefer steam fish ^^ Tastier and not so.. 'ni'(In chinese please). Initially Souyan wanted to buy Koi, but the queue was pretty long. Sat down for awhile and out of nowhere, we decide to head off to play mahjong @ Souyan's house!!

Damn long nvr play with them alrdy, all noob!! Hahaha. Dk how to count chips, dk how to distribute the tiles etc. Failure sial us. HAHA. Played from abt 9 to 11.30, and home sweet home ;) Rica and Chermaine took cab while I took the train. Brokegurlzxs94. Sian. I need mother fucking money..

Two days not gng to study, I'm not gng to play so much anymore. I need my rest, I need to study so I can spend alot alot a whole lot of time with bby when he books out!! Heard his phone is back with him!! Morning I didn't received any of his message and I swear, I feel like so without motivation manz :< Luckily tmr can have alrdy hehe ^^

Was talking on the phone with bby while mahjong-ing, and Souyan says she nvr heard me talking so sweetly to anyone before. HAHAHA. Ikr, because I fucking love bby! ^^ He make me laugh, he make me cry, he cheer me up, he carry me ard and just treat me like princess. I'm lovin' it. HEHE.

Yes, I feel damn fucking guilty not studying. I dw to like.. play so much and when results come it failed me. I need to pull up my GPA. Yes. I need to drill that in my mind! Not gng out for 2days, tmr & sat. Just gonna go work, come home so I can study!! I need to study. Too much to do, too lil time.. still, I hope time could flyyyyyyyy.

Bby, hang in there. You've got my luv. (L)

Never once had.

2011-08-10T08:59:00.000-07:00

I can't help but love you.

10th Aug,

Headed to bed only at abt 3plus as I got home that late.... woke up 7am plus this morning. Sigh I look like zombie, totally! Seniors were asking me if I took weed, HELLO I DON'T. I DON'T EVEN KNOW WTS IS THAT!!!!! Headed to school without laptop, feel damn accomplished. But y'know what? I borrowed my classmates ipad to play so... no diff ah. I'm like still kind of distracted FML. First lesson was blaw presentation, my whole group nobody wear formal LOL. Okay, one guy wore semi formal so yeah.. Still.. I hope we get good marks since we really throw our reputation away T.T

Headed for lunch with the classmates and then to the next class. Tried my best to pay attention, luckily teacher gave notes. Gonna do the past year paper soon.. soon enough. Before next consultation next wed! ;) Headed to work after that, and went over to JP find yaya and Daphne! Bby called while Yaya was closing shop. His platoon's hp kenna confiscated wts. I'm like so pissed la. It is like, IMMORAL. Fuck them FUCK THEM HARD _l_ . Now I can only hear bby's voice at night.. sigh. So Promise myself, everyday before 10 must reached home! I know I can ;) Because I love bby. Love him so much.. Hanged off abt 15mins later, keep telling bby to be a strongman!! Because I know both of us are like.. breaking down anytime soon. Sigh. Chit chatted with Daphne and Yaya for awhile, and cabbed home with Daphne.

I'm like bloody tired right now.. not gng study today I guess :< Shall make it up tmr then. Sigh. Have to study, I NEED FUCKING A's!!! If not.. really the end manz. Deprived of sleep now.. everyday need at least 8hrs of sleep, no joke. Without bby, I become so lazy now. lazy go out, lazy make up, lazy dress, everything lazy! Just wanna stay at home and nuaaaaaa my day away!!

On a brighter side, bby's booking out in like one more week! Yes I've fucking survived for 11days.

Though sometimes, in the middle of the day or night, I would so feel like breaking down.. I keep telling myself I've got to be strong. Just because of you bby, because of you.

Fear for falling.

2011-08-10T08:34:00.000-07:00

I'm scared of not being with you.

Late updates again! Shall update abt..

9th Aug first! :D

Well, it is national day! and BETTY'S 19TH BIRTHDAY!! :D

Headed over to JE at abt 230, which was actually the time when we should have alrdy reached JE. Shalln't mention it, like shit only. Everyone keep drag drag drag so yeah, abt 330 then headed off to MBS with eck, cheryl & Jac. Having lotsa fun on the MRT, talking damn loud. They say 3 woman makes one market, I Say 4 girls make 5 markets! Trust me on that. Alighted at City Hall and chanced upon Hector. He hit my hand so hard that I was pissed and like getting myself ready to stare at the person who hit me la, in the end is him, kinda shock! Saw his gf ah ^^ HAHAHA, Should say we're very honoured.

Headed to buy ChippyChicken and Jac bought Best Fries Forever. Saw Miss Chew, called her and I'm not too sure if she remembers me but she act like she does so yeah.. y'know. Teacher and student.. awkward LOLOLOL. Went to find Melissa and off we go to MBS! Wanted to cab as we're all so lazy to walk under the big big sunny sun, and too excited for swimming! However, we've 5girls now so yeah, couldn't flag till any cab. Alright, honestly, we only tried one cab so.. HAHAHAHA. Took bus, and we almost missed our stop! Luckily the mother, Cheryl asked the bus driver and we alighted, JUST IN TIME. Lost our way while gng over to MBS, but the MOTHER, asked passerby and the guards(Due to National Day, many guards can be seen and many road are blocks which are a nuisance....), finally, likea FINALLY, we reached out destination!! (of cos many stunt in between the journey there but blah, too lazy to elaborate!)

Betty came down fetch us and yes, we went up her hotel. Saw her bro and father. Changed and out we go, to the skypark!!! Her bro joined us. Finding a place to put our stuff was damn hard! Finally we found one, thanks to the auntie JAC who snatched it with some other family LOLOL. Who da fuck cares :):) Put our stuffs, went to Jacuzzi and then headed to the pool! The view is likea naise only la sial. Cheryl had to go off early so she went off to meet her boiboi, and Betty followed her. Then just eck jac melissa betty's bro and me. but betty's bro is like urm, always isolating himself so... it is like only the 4 of us!

Night came, we decide to just go back up to the hotel. Luckily the guard didn't stop us to check our cards as none of us have it and yes, someone came into the lift and save us by helping us insert her card so we could go to our level. saw the rest of the girls, and they heading to the skypark while we heading to the hotel. okay can.

betty's bro bathed and the girls were like shivering inside the hotel room, awaiting for the fireworks!!!!! Finally it came, wa got heart somemore. NAISE. Went to bathe and i fucking swear, the 3 girls bathe likea 'fast' only. finally they're done with it and the others came back. so like exchanging showering time la. (Can imagine how fast the 3 girls bathed right? LOLOLOL) Bby called me not long after that, chatted with him in the toilet as outside was damn noisy! Sigh poor bby could view until MBS.. so near yet so far. (He was watching the parade in the camp) Talked for quite some time, hanged off and he went to bed:)

More people came, and I wanted to go off badly. But this sel ah, cannot maintain, want to stay LOLOL. So stayed, drank but i fucking swear I like only tasting the drink when I kenna forfeit. No mood :< Miss bby badly sigh. Then played dare or dare, luckily I kenna twice only. Both with my girls, cheryl and melissa. Baby Jac was feeling down and counselled her for awhile. Luckily she's fine soon after that!! :D

So finally, everyone is willing to leave and we headed home. Cabbed home with stel, eck, sel and myself. Should say it was a fruitful night with the girls. But on the other hand, I fucking miss my bby. sigh. :< Shall blog in another blog post!! ;)

"I can hear you, I can understand you. My hands reaching out for you to grab onto. I feel the pain, you've been too afraid to explain. And I'm here to promise that I'll take it all away"

I'm so fucking in love with you boy, cxh (L)

National Day.

2011-08-09T02:19:00.000-07:00

A lil love goes a long way.

8th Aug,

I probably should start my post that way since.. my blog timing etc are fucked up. Just like my life. (heads down)

Alright, so woke up @ 11plus, messaged that slowpoke bean asking her if she's awake. (As I thought she had no school) However, she was in school!!!! Fucking last minute can -.- .Waited for her to finish seeing her lecturer etc, which was abt 3, then we headed down to yishun to find brian, hector and kianboon! Know why we went there? JUST BECAUSE I WANTED TO EAT 925 CHICKEN RICE SO BADLY HEHE. Somehow, it did not taste so tasty like before. I reckon it's because without bby's appearance there :< Life is so fucking different without bby! Argh! P.S This proves how much I love you ok sillyboy.

Slacked at the table and the sun was shining so fucking brightly at bean and me! Was thinking of gng for a movie or just gng to brian's house mahjong. He made a call to his mum, know his sis gng out and ta-da, we cabbed to his house ;) Kianboon was such a nice guy har(hardly can be seen), he paid for the cab fare. (I hope he don't claims from bby later on, HAHAHA Just keeeeeeeding). So yeah, mahjong-ed for abt 1hr plus? Won 3bucks, but didn't collect since it was somehow like play for fun. At the very least... I DID NOT LOSE. Bby must be v.proud of me right bby ^^ KEKEKE. Kianboon headed home first, and brian went to bathe while I took his phone and tweet ^^ Bean uses Hector's and yes we slacked at his house for awhile. In the end, we played deal and YES I AM NOT THE LAST ONE AGAIN (Y). In fact, I was the 2nd to win for 1st round and 1st for the 2nd round. HAHAHA, improved alot (Y).

Headed to Yishun GV to catch Zookeeper. Initially I thought we were watching the rise of the apes of planet(whatever you name it la hor, the main points are there LOL). Bought Nachos, all-time-favourite, munch onto it and bby called ^^ Chatted with him for quite some time, causing nuisance to the people watching movie. HEHE. Luckily I was not being scolded, must be they overheard my conversation with bby and know he is in army. So considerate sial Yishun people HAHAHA. Bby iz still so kewt and entertaining, bet we gonna have all day and night long talking abt his life in army, and my fucked up life outside. He keep saying abt how dark he had become, complaining and ranting and ranting. But then, I enjoy hearing him doing that. Like ahsoh hehe but me luv it!

I am seriously serious, abt being serious that I seriously can't wait for him to book out! First book out ever. He spend like.. HALF A MONTH IN SIDE AND WE DIDNT SEE EACH OTHER LEH WALAO. Lifesucks. Boo!

Finished the movie, train-ed home with Bean, Brian, Hector and Kianboon. Brian and Kianboon heading down to Hector's house which is at Yewtee and Bean alighted at Boonlay. Home sweet home, did some BLAW thingy which is not completed and presentation starts on wed! Browse thru some BMGT slides, getting rough idea what it is abt. Honestly, it is like.. COMMONSENSE. Which makes me even HARDER to study because I'm so fucking STUBBORN that i REFUSE to MEMORISE a single shit. so.. FUCK MY LIFE :<

Just before I end off, gonna wish Singapore a Happy birthday(-.-) & My beloved bbg BETTY Happy awesome 19th Birthday!! (L) Sigh I really want to steal one year away from her la please. Like I say, Life sucks.

Gng over to MBS for swimming session, bbg's session, betty's birthday celebration tmr(or later...LOL)

I'm getting afraid of celebrations, they never end off well.

They always make me tear.

Fret not, I'm still gonna smile.

Will be fine. Will be fine. No fear. No fear..

Because you love me

I'm everything I am, because you loved me.

The song speaks right thru my heart. Every single line of lyrics describes how I feel.

He is the strength for me, he is the one that stood by me.

He came into my life, making my world such a better place.

He saw the best there was in me.

He gave me faith 'cos he believed.

I'm everything I am, because he had loved me, is loving me, and will be loving me.

Thankyou bby, for being the one and only that would stood by me.

In bad or good times, in right or wrong times, in every time.

Luv you. Mwack (blow kisses to Tekong)

Belated Post.

2011-08-08T14:21:00.000-07:00

Someone like you makes my life so much better.

Gosh, I keep forgetting to post :< Didn't post ytd either... but oh well, it was a boring sunday! totally boring. Woke up @ 1plus I think, with 3 bby's text! Happyhappy ^^ Slacked the day infront of my lappy :< Sigh miss bby so much! Headed out at abt 8plus to meet Daphne and get LYX's pressie. Wonder if she will see this.. hmm..

Lousy hp went out of batt and I used Daphne's phone to text bby! Bby called and we chit chatted for quite long ^^ Longer than previous nights! Was halfway thru telling him how upset I was the previous night(saturday), then he had to hang up suddenly :< Damn sad. But no worries, I'm sure gng to rant to him on the 18th! He called me thrice, the last one was just to say he is gng sleep and goodnight to me. Not forgetting, he also texted me before he toh. Grrr I miss him damn fucking much la :< Can girls go into army because of bf? HEHE.

Daphne went toilet to shit and I was outside holding her phone, waiting for her to come out. Chanced upon liting and told her what happened as well. Then chit chatted awhile, Daphne came, continue chit chatting and Daphne & I took cab home! Didn't have any cash with me so used nets, but the nets on the cab was so lousy! No reception. No choice but to called mum down. hehe, feel so guilty but yay saved 5bucks! HAHAHAHA.

Reached home, studied for awhile before heading to bed! Can't believe I've started studying when exams is still 2 weeks away!!!! Know why? Because when bby book out on 18, 19, 20, 21.. I'm all his. No studies, no gfs, nothing. Just him ^^ Hehe. I miss him that much, yes that much!!!!!

Hi bby, 10 more days. Jiayou! I'm so gng to pamper you with good food, bear hugs and awesome kisses when you book out. 辛苦你了哦 <3

Kill those memories.

2011-08-07T01:33:00.000-07:00

When every else doesn't matter.

Didn't managed to blog ytd as I'd a tough day and night. Everything just proves to me how insignificant am I to everybody, except for my boiflen. Went to work in the morning, supposed to work till 5/6, in the end 2plus can go off alrdy. Somehow, I really hate it. Makes me earn so lil. Fuck it.

Didn't joined wenloong they all as they watching horrible bosses which I'd alrdy watched. Linda didn't want to meet, no one else I could turned to. That was when I realised, I'm all alone. Nobody would always be there for me. When I want to meet just someone, not even a fucking soul are willing. How awesome right? Lonely. And all I could think of was if bby was here, I would just go to Yishun without second thoughts.. but.. sigh.

Headed home, slacked around at home till about 5.30 before heading out to meet wenloong, jovin, jiani, lynn, jestor and lionel. Initially I alrdy did not have the mood to meet as I'm so reluctant to head out and anw, it was meant for wenloong's birthday celebration what. Although our birthdays are 3days apart, mine doesn't matter. I GET IT NOW.

Had Marche, went for pool, slacked at swensen, sang happy birthday song to wenloong with cake. Sweet came and passed me my present, how lovely. She's the only thoughtful one who had got me a present (excluding elaine since she was down with chicken pox, couldn't meet us:<). The others? Wenloong only ;)

After much discussion, they decides to head down to PH. Well, I was considering it very seriously as I'd promise bby I would not go down club for 19 days! However, everyone is gng and y'know what, Jestor said "underage confirm can go in, nvm one. No need pay entry fee also" So cabbed down, and that's when I really couldn't take it anymore. I mean like for god's sake, you want to go PH so much but it doesn't mean YOU'VE GOT TO LIE. Beforehand, I ALRDY STATED THAT I DO NOT HAVE A FUCKING IC. If you're clever, you would have guessed, ya right need to check IC. Feeling so down, paranoid, fucked up and now with this mother fucking problem. I walked away. Jovin was chasing me while I make my way out to take a cab home.

Cabbed home, and I teared inside the fucking cab. Been long since I cried for friendship, and guess how much I've been hurt. Just use your heart and think, is it my fucking fault to make such a nuisance? Well, if you think it is, fine go ahead. You do not fucking deserve me.

Anw, photos of the present Sweet prepared for me ;)

I fucking love this because it is so unique. A ring! With "HPL" Thanks joycelyn (L)

What does it proves to me my dear, is that wenloong is more impt than me. You all do not have the mother fucking time to get me a present, to celebrate with me but you all got the time to buy him a present and celebrate with him. Seriously, is it fucking fair for me? Just fucking use your brain and think k. Yes I'm this childish but I'm utterly disappointed with y'all. Fucking disappointed till the extend that I somehow wished to have no more communication with y'all. K sua. Thanks for teaching me an important lesson, till then.

My bby didn't scold me for wanting to go PH, he was so understanding.

And that's why I love him so much. Always thinking rationally, always giving me strength to move on. Hehe, 我爱你! (Loves & Kisses)

XOXO

Belated Birthday.

2011-08-05T08:06:00.000-07:00

Bitter, sweet or sour, happy or sad times, I've got your back.

5th Day without bby is coming to an end, finally. Went to school in the morning, had tutorials, had lecture. Finally, finally, ate my pepperlunch!! Sibei kaixin. Hiakhiak. Stayed back to present individually to teacher as I missed the presentation on Monday. Then headed to do my project, finally it is complete. Finally. Met Sel and then accompanied her to eat pepperlunch. Seeing her eating pepperlunch, I bo bian grab ajipalan food to eat s well ^^ Headed home after that. Chit chatted with her during the ride home. We really likea same pattern only sialllzxs. K, maybe some what different but overall similar ^^ Like mother, like daughter!

Bby called me, chatted a minute or so and he had to hang up. Sigh. Driving me crazzzzzzzy only his sergeant. Wanna kill them badly >:( But no choice, my boy is becoming a man(I sound like a mother ahem). Watched 9pm show, getting more and more exciting siolzxs! Have to catch it daily, hopefully!! School had also come to an end this sem. How time flies! Seriously, I think poly life gonna be short, as for sweet... for now I can't conclude yet. Exams in abt 2-3 weeks time. No way man! I'm so gonna score well for it. I have to! :<

So was about to paint my nails when suddenly, this siao girl, limyingxuan called me saying she's outside my hse want to use toilet! (Oh, before that this another siao girl ask if i'm home, she wanna ask me about ITB. Like uh hello, she's so much smarter la, but I DID NOT SUSPECT A SINGLE THING FML) Opened the door and xiaomin and sumin pop up singing happy birthday song to me! Awwwww. Surprised me, finally they succeeded HEHE. They were like "urm wait lend me lighter first LOLOL". Invited them in, finished painting my nails(I feel accomplished but bet when bby book out, my nails chipped off again:<), took some polaroid photos. Last year, twin and susu got me the mickey mouse film. I told myself that I would use it on them next year(which is this year). Yay I did it. 说话算话 >:) Sent them off and here I am, blogging ;) Overall I got to say, my birthday this year had been a good one. Not great because.... not awesome because there's no bby! Then again, I got to thank every single one of you who had participated in my life. All of you are great people I love!

True enough, they cheered me up. I always regret saying things I shouldn't, doing things I shouldn't. Somehow, I should be more mature enough to think, spare a thought for others. Ya right I should. Because people are born with feelings, and everyone is different from one another. I should learn to appreciate and not cry when they're gone. Awesome people should nvr be let go.

How sweet of them, likea sugar. (L)

Having work tmr, shall rest early tonight ;)

Tmr is the 6th day, and soon, the 18th day will be coming.

Hi bby, when you finally see this, I'm sure you've alrdy passed your ippt and bookout alrdy. Here I am, on this very moment giving you all my luck, hoping things would go smoothly for you tmr. I wanna see you soon because I'm hanging on a thread and am breaking down sooner or later. Nevertheless, hearing your voice every night really makes me wanna stay strong. Don't worry boy, I know we can make it. Once in awhile we would pat each other back and saying, add oil. Because we are always loving each other with all of our heart every now and then, never stopping. Never are you allowed to stop, never will you let me go, never shall we stop. With all of my heart, I wanna tell you, bby me lurbbe chiu.

Birthday.

2011-08-05T05:44:00.000-07:00

All I wanted to do was trust someone to always be around.

Second post of the day! Gonna sum up what happened ytd! Maybe I should be glad because there's not much photos so.. quick update ^^

Headed to school @ 10 because I skipped 9-11 lecture. Wasn't able to woke up(previous post mentioned, too tired ^^). Went to school, saw familiar faces, wishes me happy birthday. Awww, how glad ;) Then went to class straight, and people were trying to TAU POK me! Wth right! I'm a girl, and so small size leh HELLO?! Of cos I siam siam siam and siam! Gonna praise myself for the ability of doing that so freaking well, hence I managed to ESCAPE! Went for lunch, didn't managed to eat pepper lunch because the queue was insane. Had something else, which the queue was... short, very very short. But the food iz nice also la! :D Benjamin, Caiyin and Lishuang came to find Cindy & Me, with cake. How sweet right! It was very shocking, never had I expected that honestly. It is like, I am not really close to them yet.. they make the effort of doing such sweet things. Super happygirl94.

Went up to class, then was settling down. Suddenly..... off light. I thought which fellow go play lights again! And suddenly, all my classmates were singing happy birthday song to me. HEHE. So cut cake, took some photos, wanted to split the cake but teacher was rushing us. Hence, only took out the chocolate and cake was distributed after the lesson. The cake, I got to say is nice. I don't like cake, but for that, I don't mind having another slice. It is delicious! I'm not those girl that have fetish for chocolate but this one, really my taste ^^

Headed to do project(Yes FML) after the lesson as it was the last lesson. Headed down to bukitbatok with Sel to find Stella. Poor baby was pretty upset about failing TP. Sigh. So went and accompanied her. Went to see if there's any movie to catch, in the end decided to catch Horrible Bosses. Went to Koufu, waited for Betty's arrival. Had fishball noodle, chit chat, catch up, camwhore and waited till 9.20 come before we headed to movie theater. Wanted to shop for laptop casing but there, all fail. Sel wanted buy snacks in, so they went Value shop while I headed to the toilet. Came back, saw them bought an earpiece for $1.05! Snatched one from them HEHE. So Stella, Sel and me now have the same earpiece, same value at different colours! ^^ Wonder how long can it lasts. LOLOLOL

Watched the movie and bby called. Chatted with him for.. 5mins only? :\ or less than that. Sigh. Fucking miss him can :< Then he got to sleep! Thought he didn't say Happy birthday to me so I make him say it to me again! Not forgetting the 'Loveyou' before he is allowed to hang up >:) I'm not evil, I'm just being sweeeeeeet ;) Halfway thru the movie, my eyes were hurting so badly, that I Could hardly opened up my eyes!!!!!! Imagine, inside theater also cannot open leh! Like shit seriously. After awhile, I really feel damn irritated so took out contacts and wear specs. Hurting me like fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkk.

So, no choice got to wear specs till I get home. Cabbed home after movie & I on-ed computer for awhile and bed, here I come. No choice, eyes could barely open! No mood to see facebook or twitter either, just wanna relax it. Make sure my eyes doesn't go blinddddddd. This is like the first time I can't fucking get to bed because of it. Like I mentioned, I teared A LIL because it was really freaking me out and hurting me like no business! Finally went to my lalaland.....

Some photos to share! :D

Card drawn by Sel, the others Idk bought by who honestly LOLOL. Overall is beanice, brian, hector & Kianboon! They told me bby told them to do this but I've totally NO IDEA if they're saying the truth or not LOL. Maybe they trying to help their brother, but on the other hand, how would they know I love macaron? Hmm....

In school, I swear the cake was freaking nice! Bought in school! Plastic bag was four leaves, so I think can buy at four leaves ^^ Chocolate fillings. BEST.

Last but not least, with the bbgs present! Stel, Sel, Betty. Beanice was supposed to come but she's sick. Can't blame her but she's the ONLY BBG I DIDN'T CELEBRATE MY BIRTHDAY WITH! K, maybe exclude the part whereby I did see her with the yishun gang LOLOL.

Overall, my birthday started out well but ended pretty badly with the eyes hurting like shit. Other than that.. I should say I shall not expect much. I just got to know that, everyone has someone as their priority in their heart. I know, stop denying. That's the fucking truth. And, I know in my heart, who treated me well, who had not. Who had lied, who had used me, who had always treated me well from the bottom of her/his heart.

Not pinpointing at anybody, don't have to feel guilty. I won't blame, because I get it. And I'm understanding enough to accept it. I'm not gng to throw a temper because of this. Afterall, it is only a 17 birthday.

Some people might not be there, but you feel their presence. Others were there, yet you know they rather not be.

(random thoughts)

Always ending off with love, to my bby.

Shall blog again later on ;) Gonna catch 9pm show for you bby! Hehe. Luvchiu.

Advanced Birthday.

2011-08-04T18:39:00.000-07:00

Be free, Be daring, Be yourself.

Didn't blog for 2 days, bet bby gonna suspect if I really did what I told him I did... Sigh FML lor. But, really, on 3rd Aug, too tired alrdy.. and ytd my eyes were hurting like fuck mad. Feeling damn irritated that I teared slightly :\ Luckily I fell asleep in the end, sibei happy!!

So, 3rd Aug(I'm trying my best to rmb what I did that day..), went school early. Reached at 10am. Thought I was late, in the end, my groupmates arrived at 11-11+. Only one arrived 10, another 10+. So, one hour did nothing FML. Only managed to do abit in one hour...... still it was quite fun filming. And, I'm as always being assigned the bimbotic girl role.

Had CQ @ Work, last lesson. Received my grades for presentation, B :\ . Sian.. then had this quiz which is open book. Was running thru notes hoping to score high. In the end, 9/15. Ok, at least I pass ;) Headed home, before gng out to meet my babies - Cheryl, Jac, Melissa & Eckerene! :D Had stingray, kangkong, bbq chicken (Y) Even after eating, we all aren't full yet. Bet we're too hungry. HAHA. Hungrybabies~ Headed to nearby Macdonald for icecream ;) All had McFlurry then chit chatted. Talking so loud, laughing out loud. Oh my, damn embarrassing can! But with the girls, hehe, had fun! :D Elwyn came to find Jac, so he settled down awhile. Armyboy makes me miss my boy fucking much :<

Walked back to Lakeside for bus to JP. Bby called me awhile, talked awhile. Sigh, although only can listen to his voice awhile.. I'm glad I guess. At least I still can listen to his voice hehe. I sound so sick :):) Board bus to JP. Headed to RUSH to meet daphne, in the end........ Darling, Yijing, Liting were also there! And they surprise me with a small cake. Aww, I feel so loved! It is like we hardly had time for one another, yettttt they still make the effort. Unlike..... I-shall-not-name-who. LOL. Initially Daphne lied to me saying that yaya want to give me present, and it is with her. So, I was being bluffed la. But then, they still got me present, just that Yaya got me mine herself.. and it is not with Daphne :\

Went home, as I was supposed to meet leqian. Told him I'm done, he can come over now. In the end... he came and with Linda! I was so fucking shocked can! Cos darling initially said she dw come one :< Hehe, super happy girl ^^ Headed to Jurong hill, talked and when it is finally 12. They took out cake and sang happy birthday song to me ;) (btw, I alrdy knew of the cake because darling accidentally showed me forgetting it was meant to be a surprise LOL). Then, headed down to find beanice as she initially wanted to surprise me. Reached beanice's place and.... told her to come down. Suddenly, leqian says "your friend ah, so many people" then I was like, uh where sial. He asked me turn behind and I saw Brian, Hector and Kianboon! Shock can! So surprise and happy ;) They told me it was bby who told them to do this, I'm not sure though LOL. Still, I've like 3 set of macaron at home now because darling got me 1 and they got me 2. LOL. Super happy ^^ Seeing them make me miss my bby so fucking much can... sigh. Though he isn't here, I feel so loved and blessed because I know he had been missing me 24/7 ^^

Went to ate chester, headed home and sleep! That explains WHY I didn't blog as I was too tired. No strength, and had lesson @ 9am! Hehe. Some photos as followed ;)

All my face likea same only.

Brother got me this (L)

Present by Yijing, Daphne, Darling, Liting ^^

Didn't manage to take photo of the 2 set of macaron and kinderbueno! Shall post it soon though ;)

Overall, the first minute of my birthday was awesome!! :D

Shall post the later part later on. Lesson ending soon, hehe.

I miss my bby, love you cxh!

Down the road

2011-08-02T08:42:00.000-07:00

I realised I'm so empty, without you.

Second day, sucks. Woke up, headed to school, went to work, home sweet home. Simple as that. No feel to talk, no feel to move, no feel no feel no feel. I'm so fucking weak without bby by my side. HOW TO SURVIVE FOR 16MORE DAYS AND 1YEAR PLUS?! Update bby who am I gng lunch with, what am I doing, which lesson am I gng, where am I gng. Though I know he wouldn't reply every single text, knowing he got it is fine with me alrdy. It is like, I feel he will know where am I and what am I doing. Feel like, we are just side by side. Yes I Know we're, cos he is with me, in my heart ;)

He called me at 9plus pm, was damn excited. But, his voice scare me. He seems so weak, and it hurts me. I wish I could be there to give him moral support, or to give him more strength. I want him to be okay. I want to see him becoming a man. And, best part is, I know he has the ability to! I know he can, because he is my boy. Not yours, not his, not theirs but MINE. M.I.N.E.

Ever since he went into army, I realised how much I really love him. I've taken him for granted :< I thought he would always be there, thought we had whole lots of time. Obviously, I was wrong. Right now, I hope time passes as quickly as 3 months had gone by. Praying everyday he will be safe, he will be fine, he will be strong. Praying he gets enough rest and he gets to be praised and not tekan. Pray..

Might be meeting beanice to get smth later on.. but she's a slowpoke!! And I'm sleepy alrdy :< Reflection anyhow do, tmr got small quiz. Sigh, I do not have the fucking mood to do a single shit of work right now! On the other hand, I want to complete as many things as I can so that I can accompany bby 24hrs after he book out! That's the only fucking motivation I'd to study!! And that starts.. tmr I guess(Wonder when is my real tmr though:\)

Still contemplating to sleep or to wait...... sigh.

"I swear I will I will make you my wife"

Prove you wrong.

2011-08-01T08:42:00.000-07:00

You belong with me.

Sent bby off in the morning, gave my presentation a miss. Worth it. Very worth it. Did not shed a single tear, was a very strong girl. Looking at his back view as he went off with the other recruits, my heart shattered. In my mind, thousands and millions of questions flashed by. Will my bby suffer inside? What if they ill-treat him? What if he couldn't take it? What if, what if, what if. None were about our relationship, all were about his welfare. I know we can make it. Because I believe in us. Honestly speaking, he has the ability to make me just set my eyes on him. Ignoring all the other handsome, pretty guys that walk pass in my life. I know it is unbelievable but that is the truth.

Before leaving him, had a meal with his family and him. I really couldn't bear to leave him :< A peck on the mouth and there we goes, 18 days not gonna see each other, at all. This is like the 1st time after 3months being together. I know, I got to be strong. Regretted not hugging him before letting him go, wish I could run up to him and hugged him for the rest of my life. Seeing how strong his family were, make me wonder, why should I cry? Held back the tears, smiled through the journey back home.

Headed out to meet linda and zhenghan to take my MC and also head off for dinner. Chit chatted with them, before heading off to Jurong Point to make a cake for yingxuan. Bby called me and I swear, that was the happiest moment in my life. Up to now, I only rmb that moment so yeah, that's the best moment. Asked bby how's in there, and his reply make me feel even more depress. Fuck the Sargent or whatever shit, see them one time beat one time :<

Abt to hang off, and I just couldn't bear. I wished he could be infront of me, letting me hug, letting me kiss and just bickering over small things. Throwing some temper and he will come and sweet talk me. Fuck. I need to grow up. Tears was in my eyes and as I walked back to find linda and co., I fucking teared :< I just couldn't hang on anymore. I miss you boy, I really do. You were always there for me through the nights, while I rushed my projects you would be there. Waiting for me to finish up so we could get to bed together. I thought it would be forever, till NS came. Fuck.

Faster rushed home, saw bby's text saying he is gng to bed. Saying he could only text me tmr night. I can't hold on anymore and tears just run down. I'm not sure if this is weak, but this is harsh. Seriously, I Don't get it. WHY NS HAVE TO TAKE AWAY MY BOYF FOR 2 FUCKING YEARS. Arghhhhhh :<

Uploaded some photos I took with bby before he became a botakboi90. Now, I end my day blogging this. Allowing my boy to have a catch up in my life after 18 days. I fucking swear after 18 days I'm gng to hug him like no tomorrow. stick with him 24hours a day. Not gng to let him leave my sight! (K, maybe for showering, shitting, peeing)

Tonight gonna be a tough night. Goodnight boy, i love you. (Send flying kisses to tekong)

2011-07-30T04:09:00.000-07:00

Been so long since I felt so depress for so long. No words could be used to describe how I feel right now, all I wanna to do is to keep crying and crying. If I could. It seems that my heart is locked up, my tears are dried up and I'm left with extremely nothing. It would be easier if all this could be a physical pain rather than emotional one.

Hurt - numb - angry - numb.

I'm not perfect, but I keep trying. If you can not see it, I'm sorry you're not worth it.

Cheeky.

2011-07-28T21:08:00.000-07:00

You're always on my mind.

Having chalet later on with bby and friends ^^ I'm sure gonna be a good good night, hopefully I'll be able to tank and not vomit or whatever! Still, I Hope bby can drunk ^^ Hehe.

Exams in less than 2 weeks, bby gng in army in less than 3 days. Life, be good to me please :< Hopefully during national day bby can come out (y)

Better listen to class ^^ Blog for the sake of blogging (y)

In a blink of an eye..

2011-07-26T23:04:00.000-07:00

For better, for worse, I've got you.

Been so long since I last blogged. Getting rather lazy, projects all gonna be due, boyf gng army, birthdays all coming. Sigh, I need some space to breathe really :<

Not gonna blog abt kukup alrdy I guess, photos are TOO MUCH. Too many to save, upload etc. But then again, it was a memorable memories. And I really wanna have another getaway soon with boiflen, with darling, with all my lovelies girlfriends ;) $.$

Birthdays are coming, troubles coming too.. sigh. Need to buy present, plan where to go, what to do. Headache la sial~ However, birthdays are supposed to be a happy kind of occasion so.. look on the bright side ^^

Boiflen gng army in 5 more days :(:( Sigh, I HATE NS. Y THEY TAKE AWAY MY BOIFLEN :< But then, I will wait ^^ Because he is the best boyf in the world, the only one that I can rant every single things to, the one that always pamper me, the one that always stay by my side. Even during quarrels, he swallow down his pride to make quarrels end quickly. Though sometimes he sibei guailan and kp ^^ , but I Still love him.

& CXH, I can feel, I can see, I know how much you love me and how much I mean to you. Thank god for you. (L)

2011-07-11T19:22:00.000-07:00

All over my mind.

2011-07-03T23:56:00.000-07:00

Love is love.

Life had been so far, so good. School, boiflen, fun and work I guess. Gonna change job soon since my boiflen gng into army in 1 month time. I need more time on weekends with him! For him, I'll do almost everything :):)

Kukup photos not yet all up, hence got to delay the updates on kukup. Might be heading to batam before bby go into army. Time, Y U PASS SO FAST :(:( On a brighter side, my birthday iz coming! Honestly speaking, I'm not happy or excited abt it. Was wondering who would be there this year.. HAHAHAH.

I want next year to come.

With love, everywhere will be so beautiful.

2011-06-28T12:00:00.000-07:00

No matter where you go, I'll follow.

USS PHOTOS ARE UP! :D Went USS with bby, alvin and kris. Initial plan was with alvin and brian. In the end, brian pangseh us :(:( Head out of bby's house with bby at abt 11plus. Was supposed to meet alvin and brian at 11 but in the end, overslept de overslept, pangseh de pangseh.... SO, in the end, we headed to USS on our own first!

Captured photos with the mascots and of course many are my self love photos:):) most of the photos I took with bby seems to be I force him take one or I purposely go close to him. He machiam like I will eat him up like that! :(:( Still, he love me enough to take with me Hehe. LUV.

Poor bby's eyes were in red state and he was feeling so shag. Heartpain :( So finally, kris and alvin arrived and we head out to have a taste of the BSG(Roller coaster) there. I was literally dropping off from the bloody seats la. Kind of scary and obviously, I shouted like mad dog HAHAHHA. Kris was so gay cos he shouted first before I screamed :):)

Overall, we'd fun at USS. Abt 6 hours, took 4 rides of cylon and 4 rides of human. And others took either 1 or 2 rides. WORTH IT HAHAHA. In the end, bby was feeling giddy but I still wanted to take the cylon. Hence, he accompanied me and thus, I love him much much. Such a wei da bby I've. HEHE.

Head off to harbourfront for KFC, and went to bby's house after that! I slept for like 4-5 days with bby and I'm god damn happy. Damn bu she de when I'd to leave him on sunday night:( Miss him!!!!

Photos speak a thousand words ^^

Conclusion: I love myself and bby damn much so there's many our photos HEHE.

This holiday were damn best out of all because I spend abt 5 days full straight with bby. Not even separated for a single hour leh! Omg, sibei shiokkkkk. I want to spend my days like this, with him, till the world ends (L)

To sum up my holidays: I spent 4 days in malaysia, 2 days at home, 1 day working, 3 days in school, 2 days in bby's house(1 day we went uss), 2 days at kukup.

AWESOME

One down, few to go.

2011-06-27T00:23:00.000-07:00

True friends stand by you through it all, be it good or bad times, they will be by your side.

OMG I'M FINALLY POSTING. Been so busy with exams previously and now back to school life. Gonna start posting up USS trip I've had with bby, alvin and kris. Not to forget SOME kukup photos. If I were to post all the kukup photos, I swear I'll die. 1.3k of photos leh!

Still, gonna start with this bbq I'd with the AAAS-C. Was a memorable one as it was a healthy activity(OK, Exclude we drink a lil), not club or whatsoever else. Main purpose of this bbq was to have a farewell party to wenloong as he will be gng into the army now and the bbq was like one day before my blaw exam, but no regrets gng down to west coast and had so much fun with them. Started out from strangers, and now all of us were close. I'm pretty sure if anything fuck me up in my life, they will be there for me to rant and urm, somehow allow me to fuck them up too HEHE.

We ate, we shuffled, we drink, we dance, wenloong and cheehoe K.O, overall fun is just an understatement to describe how much I've enjoyed the day with them. Was simply awesome! And I want more, more & MORE this type of events to be up :):) Uploaded some photos, for more photos go to muai fb ^^

Left at abt 2plus, before everything ends due to the fact I've exams the next day. Nice experience though, drinking, bbq-ing before the day of exam. Hopefully I'm so not gna do badly for it :\ bo pi bo pi!! :D:D:D

Gonna start uploading the other photos before I've so much more photos not uploaded.

2011-06-16T22:49:00.001-07:00

2011-06-06T03:59:00.000-07:00

"To die by your side is such a heavenly way to die"

Promise to blog soon! Busy mugging right nao ^^

我想吃榴莲:(:(

First month (L)

2011-06-04T21:16:00.000-07:00

You make me feel like I'm the only person you will ever love.

Today is 5th June. I'm lack behind by 4/5 days. 1st June was the one monthhhhhh hehe. Although bby & I initially did said we won't celebrate monthly anniversary, but I just wanted to do smth for this first month! Hence, I baked cookies(Photos will be up after Marissa uploaded it), wrote him letter & forced him to taking pictures with me hehe.

He claimed he was shock la but he appear so normal lor. Also dk true or not HEHE. But anw, he finished up the cookies alrdy so.. the cookies must be naise ^^ Of course, how would I possibly did the cookies all by myself. I NVR BAKE BEFORE LOR. Thanks to darling & Marissa & Marissa's sister help ^^ They only guide me hor, is still counted as I did them myself k! LOL

Alrght, gonna update soon abt wen loong's bbq! was fun ^^ making chee hoe & wen loong cmi, I feel fucking accomplish! HEHE. For now, I needa start studyinggggg. Gonna post next week I guess ^^ Thursday faster come! By then, my CT Will be over liaozxs.

A lil more photos for you to envy my bby & me ^^

we didn't say we will be doing this, but notice our mouth! :D

I force him to have a pose that looks like he is enjoying the cookie, then he laugh:\

Time running out.

2011-05-30T19:04:00.000-07:00

With fear, you will never be able to success, so don't.

Exam is just round the corner, this sat to be exact. And know what? I know nuts about almost all my module:(:( Good luck to me right? Sigh. What to do? Life without studies will be so boring! Will be too aimless but life with studies will be too stressful! How how how! Never will I be satisfied with my fucking life:( So.. FML.

I miss the time whereby I club, I party, I drink, I work, I have almost NOTHING to worry, to stress about. Now I regret for wanting school to start back then. I can predict that when I finish(If I successfully study finish)my poly life, I'm so gonna miss studying because I doubt I can make it to uni :\ Right right, only 1mth plus of school had started and I'm so depress alrdy. How!!!! Abt 3years to go leh!!

On a brighter note, boyf always encourage me, makes me laugh hehe. So now, my life is full of laughterrrr ^^ Not to froget, I've my gfs that will always be there ;) Ok, sometimes they're busy with their life but I know if I'm in deep shit they will be there for moiiii!! Don't be jealous ok! :D

BUT, if only i've the whole world money.. or maybe just enough to get all my wants & needs that would be the most mother fucking perfect moment in my whole fucking life (Y)

K right dream on hpl -.-

You & Me.

2011-05-29T08:59:00.000-07:00

Too close.

2011-05-23T18:57:00.000-07:00

Some memories will always haunt us and we wish it had never happened.

So long since I blogged smth abt my life right now, so long since I blog like this rather than putting only quotes and pictures. Life had been abt schl, boyf, friend, party and work. Stress die me:< I need a break frm all this busy schedule! Me want to just relax at home, watching tv and just wasting my day awayyyyyyyyy.

But I'm super duper fortunate to have a boyf that dote on me, that always let me have things my way ^^ I guess life will not be perfect and it will not be imperfect. While I'm typing this, I can picture my bby seeing this blog & then want to mock me sial. Make me cannot post properly :\ Luv ya bby! :D

You're the best things that's ever been mine, cxh <3

2011-05-15T19:14:00.000-07:00

2011-05-12T09:06:00.000-07:00

"Cute is when your personality shines through your looks. Like, when you see someone’s personality in the way they walk and you just feel like hugging them every time you see them"

Life goes on.

2011-05-09T08:35:00.000-07:00

2011-05-05T21:08:00.000-07:00

When two become one.

2011-05-05T02:45:00.000-07:00

Fate brought us here and we will go on from there, together.

2011-04-27T07:48:00.000-07:00

Expectation.

2011-04-12T04:46:00.000-07:00

No one will love me unless I love myself first.

Poly starting in less a week's time. I'm nervous, looking forward to it, and at the same time, wondering will my life be worse than now :\ No more partying after poly starts :((((( All I want now is to be happy every single day, no worries ^^ And that seems to be a very difficult task, siannnnnnn.

Been using my new lappy to take photos hehe! Happyhappyhappygurlxzs iz me :D

I know you will leave eventually, no one stays with me till the end.

I'm not going to put a lot of hopes on you, but I'm not giving you up either.

Tough task, but all I'm hoping is this will be worthwhile..

2011-04-09T07:26:00.000-07:00

2011-04-07T10:12:00.001-07:00

2011-04-07T10:08:00.001-07:00

“Maybe that’s my problem. I open up to too many people, expecting them to do the same for me. And being crushed when I find out I’m just not worth it.

2011-04-03T12:11:00.001-07:00

More than words.

2011-03-31T11:59:00.000-07:00

friendship is the most precious things and so you're my most precious person.

2011-03-12T02:56:00.000-08:00

Fuckin' perfect.

2011-02-27T00:50:00.000-08:00

Close to my heart.

2011-02-16T09:00:00.000-08:00

Best friends know you are breaking inside despite you having that perfect smile.

If I were given a choice to choose over my darling and you, I know I'll choose my darling bcos she had been there for me, those ups and downs. No one can ever replace her, she meant so much so much to me that I can never imagine life without her. Hadn't been updating my blog, but had an awesome time at town with darling on 1st feb. Did our nails, photos are up at facebook :) Too lazy to upload at blog hahahaha.

I should get a private blog so I can rant out what's on my mind.

It's tearing me inside, and all I can do is fake a fucking smile to get through it.

FML.

All over again.

2011-01-26T08:12:00.000-08:00

Here we are, at the crossroads once again..

I am proud to say I am an Ngee Ann Poly student, sort of from now on? HAHA. Glad to make it to the course I want, glad to have things going smoothly for me right now HOHO. Guess this is life, life is never gonna be perfect. While life takes something away from you, it will gives you a reason to live all over again.

Next up, I can't wait for my BKK trip!!! (Y) Now, all I need is moolah moolah and moolah. Can money fall from the sky preaaaaaaaase? :(

Praying hard, you'll make it there, for me.

For you.

2011-01-25T08:57:00.000-08:00

Nothing in life is permanent, nothing gonna last forever.

Nothing changes.

2011-01-22T08:59:00.000-08:00

If only 'if only' comes true..

Counting down to the day when we will finally meet again. For how long am I gonna be like this, I don't know. For how long will I wait, will I hold on, I don't know. All I am sure of is now, I miss you terribly. I wish, time could be turn back. Although I treasured every single moment I'd with you before we went separately but still, those were too lil. I wish I've more time.

I finally hear your voice.. after 17 days. (Y)

I wish you would drop by here, and listen to my heart speaks.

Imy.

2011-01-20T00:43:00.000-08:00

"Memories are what warm you up from the inside. But they're also what tear you apart."

- Haruki Murakami

2011-01-15T07:42:00.000-08:00

刺猬

2011-01-13T07:54:00.000-08:00

"sometimes you have to forget what you want to remember what you deserve"

Officially over.

2010-12-24T00:36:00.001-08:00

More than friends. Less than lovers.

Been thru alot although it had just been a month. Everything changes. I've been so wild that I lost myself, lose control. No, that's not what scares me. What totally terrific me is that I no longer have the ability to control my emotions, my feelings. All I do everyday and every night is to smile, smile like i've never been hurt. And this sucks.

It is crystal clear that, Im not strong enough. But, I'll still be learning to get stronger each day..

Grad night.

2010-11-21T03:03:00.000-08:00

No matter where we will be going to next year, I hope we all will be friends forever.

So, last update of grad night before Ive some really random photos.

Grad night was a blast, I WANT TO DANCE OMG. Love the dancing part but sadly, not much photos of it. All of the photos were taken from photos that are tagged with my name( so obviously will have me). Food wasn't as good as expected, but overall everything was quite enjoyable. Sigh, can I have another night like that? HAHA.

Played some games and our table won! So we got ourselves some polaroid photos and there, here are some of it. haha. I was sitting on the table with all this awesome people and two more of 5Ns people. :D

One more day before Im back in singapore. WOOHOO:D

P.s// photos aren't in the correct order, so sorry!!!!

Last day of school.

2010-11-19T20:00:00.000-08:00

Time flies, before I know, Yuanching is no longer my school.

Currently in Malaysia, blogging right now. Been isolating from outside, except watching show, looking thru twitter and facebook, not to forget to chat with my beloved babyJ. So, I'll update with the last day of school right now :D been a month since I stepped into school for lessons, or two.

Im not too sure if I'll miss school, but I'll definitely miss those people that had been part of my life. So, goodbye to them and hello to my new life, without them. Oh, of cause for those who had been there and will be in my future, y'know who you're, Im so glad for them. Hahaha.

2 more days before Im going back singapore, missing BabyJ so much :(

And my darling ~

Susu&Twin(Advance) Celebration!

2010-11-18T17:40:00.000-08:00

Although we had a hard time communicating, you're still dearly loved.

I know I know, I've been neglecting my blog, again. Just had been too busy with O levels previously and now with work. When will I be able to live an extremely carefree life:( But then again, maybe I'll be bored to death if not for all this busy event.

Alot alot of overdue photos that I'll be posting slowly. Shall start with susu's birthday celebration & twin's advanced. Both on the same day!

We had benten(Right now, Im craving for it:( ), surprised susu with a cake and thats it. Due to the fact that O levels was around the corner back then, we didnt went out to have girl's day. But still, we had fun with one another companion, I guess.. I'll just let the photos do the talking!

Didn't had much photo of twin's although it was supposed to be her advance celebration too. As she thinks she looks ugly with her lupsup clothing. Hahahah.

Had gradnight ytd and it was awesome! Shall steal photos and upload it here soon! Stay tune. :D

Karma.

2010-10-10T08:10:00.000-07:00

I love you, you love me, just not strong enough to get thru this.

Bet you've forgot about me.

Bet you've stopped loving me.

Bet I wasn't strong enough to live thru this.

Goodbye.

You and me equals love.

2010-10-04T08:05:00.000-07:00

Those people who are meant to be, always found each other in the end.

Im blogging right now because it'd been one month since I patched with my babyJ. Shocking, amusing, amazing, creepy and many more words to how we broke up for around three months and yes, we got back tgt, again. Should I call this fate or just plainly love? I've no idea where we will be leading to in the future, how long we gonna hold on and be there for each other or how many times more can I kiss you by the lips, hold your hands or just sleep on your chest. I do not need to know how long more our heart gonna beat as one, all I know right now this very moment is that I've you and You've me.

Quarrels is inevitable in every relationship. It either breaks or build us. We decides which one. I've always believed that every encounter with another human beings, be it enemy or lovers or friends, it's all fate. Fate brought us here, and as of how long we gonna be what we are, the decision lies in us. We decides where to go next. Obviously as of the choices we had, you chose me and I've chose you.. and it is all that matters right now.

I love to bite you, I love how you always makes me feel so loved. I love how you makes me smile with your weird action and I love how you are so generous to get things I want. I love to kiss you by your lips, to hold you by your hands and to be ambush by your hugs. Many says we aren't gonna make it, but I guess we've walked this road far enough to prove them wrong.

As we walk down this road tgt, baby, no matter where the future leads us to, I want you to know that @ this point, I love you wholeheartedly. When I decides to get back with you, I want to make this a worth while fight.

BabyJ, I love you.

041010.

Picnic.

2010-09-30T14:19:00.000-07:00

In life, there's gonna be so much obstacles that you've got to overcome with.

Hihihi, Im finally posting! Had been busy with prelims, o level is just round the corner. Super duper stress as prelim was badly done:\ Im starting to doubt my own ability to score well, and if worst come to the worst, i get marks that even I can't believe, I shall leave school and step into society I guess.. Sigh:(

O'right, enough of the venting. I shall post photos of Jess birthday cum Pinic! (Was actually months ago but I've been so lazy to update so.. here we go!)

Was raining @ first so we settled down @ mac @ westcoastpark before heading out to the patch of grass and sat there for hours. Had fun time eating on snack, talking and also flying kite(nigel did most of the flying of kite)

Below was two photos taken on I forget when, when we headed down to NUM to change jess's shoe:) Just random two photos hehe.

Life had been ups and downs. Being back with Jerron Ang was the most unexpected part in my life I guess. Im not sure how long we will be tgt, how far we gonna walk this road. But one thing Im sure of is that I'll put in all my effort to make this the right choice, to endure the rainy days with him and to make all this worthwhile! :D

BabyJ♥